So far I have talked to three guys. In my previous post, I talked about the two guys, that I have talked to on MSN, one a potential.
Well, guess what? I have not seen him on-line since then....which is a bit annoying...why does this happen?? He was a real potential, and I don't know what could have happened.
However, I got to talk to a new lovely guy yesterday, and he seemed like a really nice guy, from our chats. Unfortunately, he can only do domestic services maybe once a month, due to his personal reasons. (he have told me them, but I am not about to disclose them here! *sticks my tongue* hee hee) Once a month is better than nothing, but I am still hoping for a weekly domestic servant, and is still waiting to talk to 3 other guys. Might have to do it through email or messages, as they seem to be not online at the same time as I am, which is a disappointment.
I am determined this time to find a domestic servant who can commit himself to me and my flat!
And so the search continues......
PS. Soon after this post, I have talked to another lovely guy.....so two potential guys for the position of a domestic servant. Cool!
Monday, 23 February 2009
Sunday, 22 February 2009
First play session of 2009!
I got in touch with an old friend, who is a very gentle man, and is very good with his hands, to ask if he wanted to Top me again, and yes, he did!
So today was the day! Let me tell you a bit about the session. :-)
He loves rope bondage, so he tied my hands together in front of me, and then bend me over the footstool. His hands begun to go everywhere he could, tracing every bit of my back and arms, and then my bum. (I was wearing the underwear, all the time throughout the session.....well the panties might have fallen off at times *wink*) And he squeezed and rubbed against the bum cheeks, then gave a few gentle spanks at first, increasing the pace bit by bit.
He used a flogger on my back (how nice to have felt it on my back, again!) and on my bum cheeks. He also used a whip.
After an hour of spanking, flogging and whipping, we stopped for a break, and chatted a bit more. Then he did a chest harness on me, and he begun to pull my hair, slapped my face a few times, asserting his domination over me a little bit. I loved it. (Although I wished that he could have pulled my hair harder, and slapped my face a bit more hard...but hey, next time!) Played with my breasts, over the bra, gently. Bend me over the footstool, again, and he spanked my bum cheeks harder this time, and I felt the heat and red marks begun to appear...so he says! :) I loved it! Although, my knees were very sore, kneeling over the footstool. He said, next time to use something soft for my knees. How nice! *grins*
Basically, it was a good start to the kinky 2009, and I can't wait to play with him again, and again! *beams*
Have a nice kinky day, everyone!
So today was the day! Let me tell you a bit about the session. :-)
He loves rope bondage, so he tied my hands together in front of me, and then bend me over the footstool. His hands begun to go everywhere he could, tracing every bit of my back and arms, and then my bum. (I was wearing the underwear, all the time throughout the session.....well the panties might have fallen off at times *wink*) And he squeezed and rubbed against the bum cheeks, then gave a few gentle spanks at first, increasing the pace bit by bit.
He used a flogger on my back (how nice to have felt it on my back, again!) and on my bum cheeks. He also used a whip.
After an hour of spanking, flogging and whipping, we stopped for a break, and chatted a bit more. Then he did a chest harness on me, and he begun to pull my hair, slapped my face a few times, asserting his domination over me a little bit. I loved it. (Although I wished that he could have pulled my hair harder, and slapped my face a bit more hard...but hey, next time!) Played with my breasts, over the bra, gently. Bend me over the footstool, again, and he spanked my bum cheeks harder this time, and I felt the heat and red marks begun to appear...so he says! :) I loved it! Although, my knees were very sore, kneeling over the footstool. He said, next time to use something soft for my knees. How nice! *grins*
Basically, it was a good start to the kinky 2009, and I can't wait to play with him again, and again! *beams*
Have a nice kinky day, everyone!
Saturday, 21 February 2009
On a search for a domestic servant Part One
I am on the look-out for a domestic servant. I have put up an advert on Informed Consent and CollarMe.
So far, there are 5 different guys 'applying' for the positron. I have made it very clear in my reply to them all that I am not looking to engage in any other kinky activities, expect for maybe foot worship and back massages.
I have chatted with 2 guys, so far, and one is a real potential, he sounds like a nice guy. The other guy I have chatted with is NOT on the shortlist, all he talked about was how he wanted to be treated by me, telling me what he wants from me, and I was like, 'hang on, it should be ME who are telling you what I WANT from you and not the other way around!' so this have put me off, almost from the beginning.
The potential guy is very nice, he did not talk about domestic services at the start, he started off by asking me how was my day, etc, he made an effort to make 'small talk' and I liked that. He also showed some sense of humour in his chat to me. I like a sense of humour.
Although I know that I am looking for a domestic servant, I also like to think that I can be their friend, too, and that we can chat freely outside of the domestic services, on MSN and in real life. That is important to me.
Anyway, I will keep you updated about the search for a domestic servant.
So far, there are 5 different guys 'applying' for the positron. I have made it very clear in my reply to them all that I am not looking to engage in any other kinky activities, expect for maybe foot worship and back massages.
I have chatted with 2 guys, so far, and one is a real potential, he sounds like a nice guy. The other guy I have chatted with is NOT on the shortlist, all he talked about was how he wanted to be treated by me, telling me what he wants from me, and I was like, 'hang on, it should be ME who are telling you what I WANT from you and not the other way around!' so this have put me off, almost from the beginning.
The potential guy is very nice, he did not talk about domestic services at the start, he started off by asking me how was my day, etc, he made an effort to make 'small talk' and I liked that. He also showed some sense of humour in his chat to me. I like a sense of humour.
Although I know that I am looking for a domestic servant, I also like to think that I can be their friend, too, and that we can chat freely outside of the domestic services, on MSN and in real life. That is important to me.
Anyway, I will keep you updated about the search for a domestic servant.
Thursday, 19 February 2009
Self-play
I am a little embarrassed to write this....but I had to write about it. :-)
Last night, I was in the bath, relaxing and thinking about things...then I got out and all of suddenly, I felt a little horny *giggle*
So I went to my bed, naked *wink* and just laid on the bed and begun to play with my clit, rubbing and more rubbing. I love to slap my face while I rub my clit, so I slapped my face many times, while taking care to not leave any marks!!
But......I wanted more....so I turned over, my bum up in the air, and I started to spank my ass cheeks, while at the same time, still rubbing my clit. Suddenly, my finger went over to my ass and I begun to play with it, I have tried before, but not like this. I was actually fingering the asshole with my finger. Never before! Wow.......Still not enough! *groans* I wanted more.....
So, I stopped, and went to get my kinky suitcase out.....(I am sure everyone have one!! lol) and took out a few things, a pinwheel, KY jelly, and a wooden spoon. I used the pinwheel on my bum, it felt really good, then used KY jelly for my asshole, really exposing it.....and after 'abusing' myself, I begun to finger myself (usually I don't finger myself...usually I play with my clit etc) but this time, it felt different, I felt really turned on, by the self-abuse I gave myself. I slip one finger in.......wanted a second one, but my pussy was a bit tight, so I used KY jelly (after checking the label!) for a second finger to go in.....and ohhhh my gooood! It felt soooo good to feel the two fingers in....and after a short time, I came - hard!
It was a good night! :-)
(and I hope you enjoyed reading this!)
Last night, I was in the bath, relaxing and thinking about things...then I got out and all of suddenly, I felt a little horny *giggle*
So I went to my bed, naked *wink* and just laid on the bed and begun to play with my clit, rubbing and more rubbing. I love to slap my face while I rub my clit, so I slapped my face many times, while taking care to not leave any marks!!
But......I wanted more....so I turned over, my bum up in the air, and I started to spank my ass cheeks, while at the same time, still rubbing my clit. Suddenly, my finger went over to my ass and I begun to play with it, I have tried before, but not like this. I was actually fingering the asshole with my finger. Never before! Wow.......Still not enough! *groans* I wanted more.....
So, I stopped, and went to get my kinky suitcase out.....(I am sure everyone have one!! lol) and took out a few things, a pinwheel, KY jelly, and a wooden spoon. I used the pinwheel on my bum, it felt really good, then used KY jelly for my asshole, really exposing it.....and after 'abusing' myself, I begun to finger myself (usually I don't finger myself...usually I play with my clit etc) but this time, it felt different, I felt really turned on, by the self-abuse I gave myself. I slip one finger in.......wanted a second one, but my pussy was a bit tight, so I used KY jelly (after checking the label!) for a second finger to go in.....and ohhhh my gooood! It felt soooo good to feel the two fingers in....and after a short time, I came - hard!
It was a good night! :-)
(and I hope you enjoyed reading this!)
Wednesday, 18 February 2009
Welcome to my new blog!
Hi there,
I am Caz, and I would like to say, Welcome!
I used to have a blog at a different website, but decided to move over here at Blogger, to be nearer to my lovely Second Life friends! :)
I have copied and pasted some of my posts from the old blog site, please enjoy reading them if you want to!
I will try to keep this blog updated regularly!
For now, have kinky fun! :-)
I am Caz, and I would like to say, Welcome!
I used to have a blog at a different website, but decided to move over here at Blogger, to be nearer to my lovely Second Life friends! :)
I have copied and pasted some of my posts from the old blog site, please enjoy reading them if you want to!
I will try to keep this blog updated regularly!
For now, have kinky fun! :-)
Saturday, 9 August 2008
Some thoughts about a weekend away...
I have been away to Brighton, to stay at a Dom friend’s house for a week. We did so many things while I was there, some kinky activities, some clothe shopping and a nice walk on the Brighton Pier and being kids in an ausument acarde while we were there!
I wanted to share with you all a few things about my experiences while I was down in Brighton. On this trip, I have come to realise a few things, and for this, I have my Dom friend to thank for.
Bondage – I have not had much experiences but that was before the Brighton trip! I have been tied up in various positions, with ropes, cuffs or chains. I have enjoyed being in bondage. When I am tied up, I feel really content, I feel like I am in my own world, and I just shut my eyes, enjoying the feeling of being helpless, and not struggling against him (unless we were doing a roleplay ) I enjoyed having him doing things to me, with his fingers, with his hands, with his tongue and many other things. But the best part for me is that when he holds me in his arms, while I am tied up, and I just sleep, dreaming away. That is when I feel at peace, that I feel happy. I can’t wait to explore more bondage with some people I know!
Caning – wow! It was a first time experience for me, and I really enjoyed it. I loved the feeling of the canes on my ass, to feel the sting from the cane, and the heat & pain soon after the cane hits. I like lying down, face down, and just closing my eyes, as I wait for the cane to hit and hit. I would love to try caning again.
Submission – I always wanted to try submission, where I would give up complete control to someone else, and let him use me in any way he wishes. This was a good opportunity for me to try it with my Dom friend for a 24 hour period. Now, I know some people may say that we might be not matched with each other, and that I might feel submissive to someone else who might be more suitable to me. But believe me, it was more than just a mismatch – it was me feeling upset, me feeling disgusted at myself, for giving up control, when I preferred to be more in control, to control the session, to control the submissive (not him!) This is a big part that I have came to realise that although I love to be on the bottom for pain play etc (as you will read in the page about me, I knew that I will not be giving up compete control once again for someone. And I am glad that I embraced submission with an open mind, and I walked away from it, knowing that I will never be in that positions again…..well, never say never!
So these are some thoughts I wanted to share with you.
Please do share your thoughts with me, on anything I might have said, or to ask questions etc.
Thank you
I wanted to share with you all a few things about my experiences while I was down in Brighton. On this trip, I have come to realise a few things, and for this, I have my Dom friend to thank for.
Bondage – I have not had much experiences but that was before the Brighton trip! I have been tied up in various positions, with ropes, cuffs or chains. I have enjoyed being in bondage. When I am tied up, I feel really content, I feel like I am in my own world, and I just shut my eyes, enjoying the feeling of being helpless, and not struggling against him (unless we were doing a roleplay ) I enjoyed having him doing things to me, with his fingers, with his hands, with his tongue and many other things. But the best part for me is that when he holds me in his arms, while I am tied up, and I just sleep, dreaming away. That is when I feel at peace, that I feel happy. I can’t wait to explore more bondage with some people I know!
Caning – wow! It was a first time experience for me, and I really enjoyed it. I loved the feeling of the canes on my ass, to feel the sting from the cane, and the heat & pain soon after the cane hits. I like lying down, face down, and just closing my eyes, as I wait for the cane to hit and hit. I would love to try caning again.
Submission – I always wanted to try submission, where I would give up complete control to someone else, and let him use me in any way he wishes. This was a good opportunity for me to try it with my Dom friend for a 24 hour period. Now, I know some people may say that we might be not matched with each other, and that I might feel submissive to someone else who might be more suitable to me. But believe me, it was more than just a mismatch – it was me feeling upset, me feeling disgusted at myself, for giving up control, when I preferred to be more in control, to control the session, to control the submissive (not him!) This is a big part that I have came to realise that although I love to be on the bottom for pain play etc (as you will read in the page about me, I knew that I will not be giving up compete control once again for someone. And I am glad that I embraced submission with an open mind, and I walked away from it, knowing that I will never be in that positions again…..well, never say never!
So these are some thoughts I wanted to share with you.
Please do share your thoughts with me, on anything I might have said, or to ask questions etc.
Thank you
Thursday, 31 July 2008
A year on.....
It is now a year since that I have realised I had a hidden side, waiting to come out, to be free, and for me to be who I am really.
That hidden side is now free, and I am very proud to be ‘kinky’!
I have been on a wonderful journey which is ever-lasting, never to be ended, I hope! I am still learning and exploring and enjoying every moment of my journey, whether it be a good or a bad moment.
Like all journeys, I have had ups and downs, more downs than I would have liked, but I feel that I have learnt a lot about myself during the “downs” times. When I was feeling down, I thought quite a lot about what being a submissive, being a Dom, or whatever meant to me at the time, and about myself in generally in life. It have helped me a lot.
At the beginning of my journey, I thought myself to be a submissive, and this was based on my fantasies and on other people’s ideas of what being submissive meant to them. However I came to realise that for me personally, labels is not important, it’s what inside me that matters, and the activities that I enjoy, the feelings from the situations, etc defines me.
As I begun to explore more of myself, I came to realise that I got excited at the thought of pain play, especially spankings and floggings. At the same time, I came to wonder how it would feel being in control, as when I was being spanked or flogged by the Top, quite often in my mind, that I wanted to control his spankings, and floggings and tell him how to do it, etc. Eventually, wondering was not enough and so I decided to step out and try being on the Top with a sub I chatted on MSN for a while, and oh my god, what a big revelation! I enjoyed being in control, to control his movements, to inflict pain on him and being waited and pampered in generally. It was like a big door opening for me to step in and learn and explore more.
Of course, I am still eager for pain play, to have someone Topping me once in a while. Now I identify myself as a switch, although who knows, that may change!
A big challenge is coming up for me, personally, as it is a big test of my submission, to see how I would feel submitting to someone, as I will be treated as a sub for a 24 hour period, and I am looking forward to that interesting experience, and seeing what the outcome would be of that 24 hour period.
I am looking forward to continuing my journey and seeing where it will go.
That hidden side is now free, and I am very proud to be ‘kinky’!
I have been on a wonderful journey which is ever-lasting, never to be ended, I hope! I am still learning and exploring and enjoying every moment of my journey, whether it be a good or a bad moment.
Like all journeys, I have had ups and downs, more downs than I would have liked, but I feel that I have learnt a lot about myself during the “downs” times. When I was feeling down, I thought quite a lot about what being a submissive, being a Dom, or whatever meant to me at the time, and about myself in generally in life. It have helped me a lot.
At the beginning of my journey, I thought myself to be a submissive, and this was based on my fantasies and on other people’s ideas of what being submissive meant to them. However I came to realise that for me personally, labels is not important, it’s what inside me that matters, and the activities that I enjoy, the feelings from the situations, etc defines me.
As I begun to explore more of myself, I came to realise that I got excited at the thought of pain play, especially spankings and floggings. At the same time, I came to wonder how it would feel being in control, as when I was being spanked or flogged by the Top, quite often in my mind, that I wanted to control his spankings, and floggings and tell him how to do it, etc. Eventually, wondering was not enough and so I decided to step out and try being on the Top with a sub I chatted on MSN for a while, and oh my god, what a big revelation! I enjoyed being in control, to control his movements, to inflict pain on him and being waited and pampered in generally. It was like a big door opening for me to step in and learn and explore more.
Of course, I am still eager for pain play, to have someone Topping me once in a while. Now I identify myself as a switch, although who knows, that may change!
A big challenge is coming up for me, personally, as it is a big test of my submission, to see how I would feel submitting to someone, as I will be treated as a sub for a 24 hour period, and I am looking forward to that interesting experience, and seeing what the outcome would be of that 24 hour period.
I am looking forward to continuing my journey and seeing where it will go.
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