Today was a bad day........

Hi everyone,

Today was not a good day.

All day today, I have been thinking a lot about last Sunday's play session, and that I wished that I had a play session this weekend, or to have a regular partner who I can use and abuse (or be used and abused) at a whim. That will be awesome.

I missed the spankings, the slapping and the hair pulling. This made me realise that I want to explore more pain play while exploring other areas. I also want to explore inflicting pain on others. *sighs* I was feeling sooo down, till I got on MSN and my new lovely friends have cheered me up and chatted with me about films, or about domestic service they may do for me, etc etc... feeling happy right now.

*sigh*..............my dream is to have a regular partner, preferbly a submissive...who I can use and abuse at a whim, no matter what time is it! :D

Just a little rant....and now it's over!

The search for domestic servant Part Two

So far I have talked to three guys. In my previous post, I talked about the two guys, that I have talked to on MSN, one a potential.

Well, guess what? I have not seen him on-line since then....which is a bit annoying...why does this happen?? He was a real potential, and I don't know what could have happened.

However, I got to talk to a new lovely guy yesterday, and he seemed like a really nice guy, from our chats. Unfortunately, he can only do domestic services maybe once a month, due to his personal reasons. (he have told me them, but I am not about to disclose them here! *sticks my tongue* hee hee) Once a month is better than nothing, but I am still hoping for a weekly domestic servant, and is still waiting to talk to 3 other guys. Might have to do it through email or messages, as they seem to be not online at the same time as I am, which is a disappointment.

I am determined this time to find a domestic servant who can commit himself to me and my flat!

And so the search continues......

PS. Soon after this post, I have talked to another lovely guy.....so two potential guys for the position of a domestic servant. Cool!

First play session of 2009!

I got in touch with an old friend, who is a very gentle man, and is very good with his hands, to ask if he wanted to Top me again, and yes, he did!

So today was the day! Let me tell you a bit about the session. :-)

He loves rope bondage, so he tied my hands together in front of me, and then bend me over the footstool. His hands begun to go everywhere he could, tracing every bit of my back and arms, and then my bum. (I was wearing the underwear, all the time throughout the session.....well the panties might have fallen off at times *wink*) And he squeezed and rubbed against the bum cheeks, then gave a few gentle spanks at first, increasing the pace bit by bit.

He used a flogger on my back (how nice to have felt it on my back, again!) and on my bum cheeks. He also used a whip.

After an hour of spanking, flogging and whipping, we stopped for a break, and chatted a bit more. Then he did a chest harness on me, and he begun to pull my hair, slapped my face a few times, asserting his domination over me a little bit. I loved it. (Although I wished that he could have pulled my hair harder, and slapped my face a bit more hard...but hey, next time!) Played with my breasts, over the bra, gently. Bend me over the footstool, again, and he spanked my bum cheeks harder this time, and I felt the heat and red marks begun to appear...so he says! :) I loved it! Although, my knees were very sore, kneeling over the footstool. He said, next time to use something soft for my knees. How nice! *grins*

Basically, it was a good start to the kinky 2009, and I can't wait to play with him again, and again! *beams*

Have a nice kinky day, everyone!

On a search for a domestic servant Part One

I am on the look-out for a domestic servant. I have put up an advert on Informed Consent and CollarMe.

So far, there are 5 different guys 'applying' for the positron. I have made it very clear in my reply to them all that I am not looking to engage in any other kinky activities, expect for maybe foot worship and back massages.

I have chatted with 2 guys, so far, and one is a real potential, he sounds like a nice guy. The other guy I have chatted with is NOT on the shortlist, all he talked about was how he wanted to be treated by me, telling me what he wants from me, and I was like, 'hang on, it should be ME who are telling you what I WANT from you and not the other way around!' so this have put me off, almost from the beginning.

The potential guy is very nice, he did not talk about domestic services at the start, he started off by asking me how was my day, etc, he made an effort to make 'small talk' and I liked that. He also showed some sense of humour in his chat to me. I like a sense of humour.

Although I know that I am looking for a domestic servant, I also like to think that I can be their friend, too, and that we can chat freely outside of the domestic services, on MSN and in real life. That is important to me.

Anyway, I will keep you updated about the search for a domestic servant.

Self-play

I am a little embarrassed to write this....but I had to write about it. :-)

Last night, I was in the bath, relaxing and thinking about things...then I got out and all of suddenly, I felt a little horny *giggle*

So I went to my bed, naked *wink* and just laid on the bed and begun to play with my clit, rubbing and more rubbing. I love to slap my face while I rub my clit, so I slapped my face many times, while taking care to not leave any marks!!

But......I wanted more....so I turned over, my bum up in the air, and I started to spank my ass cheeks, while at the same time, still rubbing my clit. Suddenly, my finger went over to my ass and I begun to play with it, I have tried before, but not like this. I was actually fingering the asshole with my finger. Never before! Wow.......Still not enough! *groans* I wanted more.....

So, I stopped, and went to get my kinky suitcase out.....(I am sure everyone have one!! lol) and took out a few things, a pinwheel, KY jelly, and a wooden spoon. I used the pinwheel on my bum, it felt really good, then used KY jelly for my asshole, really exposing it.....and after 'abusing' myself, I begun to finger myself (usually I don't finger myself...usually I play with my clit etc) but this time, it felt different, I felt really turned on, by the self-abuse I gave myself. I slip one finger in.......wanted a second one, but my pussy was a bit tight, so I used KY jelly (after checking the label!) for a second finger to go in.....and ohhhh my gooood! It felt soooo good to feel the two fingers in....and after a short time, I came - hard!

It was a good night! :-)

(and I hope you enjoyed reading this!)

Welcome to my new blog!

Hi there,

I am Caz, and I would like to say, Welcome!

I used to have a blog at a different website, but decided to move over here at Blogger, to be nearer to my lovely Second Life friends! :)

I have copied and pasted some of my posts from the old blog site, please enjoy reading them if you want to!

I will try to keep this blog updated regularly!

For now, have kinky fun! :-)