I am a little embarrassed to write this....but I had to write about it. :-)
Last night, I was in the bath, relaxing and thinking about things...then I got out and all of suddenly, I felt a little horny *giggle*
So I went to my bed, naked *wink* and just laid on the bed and begun to play with my clit, rubbing and more rubbing. I love to slap my face while I rub my clit, so I slapped my face many times, while taking care to not leave any marks!!
But......I wanted more....so I turned over, my bum up in the air, and I started to spank my ass cheeks, while at the same time, still rubbing my clit. Suddenly, my finger went over to my ass and I begun to play with it, I have tried before, but not like this. I was actually fingering the asshole with my finger. Never before! Wow.......Still not enough! *groans* I wanted more.....
So, I stopped, and went to get my kinky suitcase out.....(I am sure everyone have one!! lol) and took out a few things, a pinwheel, KY jelly, and a wooden spoon. I used the pinwheel on my bum, it felt really good, then used KY jelly for my asshole, really exposing it.....and after 'abusing' myself, I begun to finger myself (usually I don't finger myself...usually I play with my clit etc) but this time, it felt different, I felt really turned on, by the self-abuse I gave myself. I slip one finger in.......wanted a second one, but my pussy was a bit tight, so I used KY jelly (after checking the label!) for a second finger to go in.....and ohhhh my gooood! It felt soooo good to feel the two fingers in....and after a short time, I came - hard!
It was a good night! :-)
(and I hope you enjoyed reading this!)
Thursday, 19 February 2009
Wednesday, 18 February 2009
Welcome to my new blog!
Hi there,
I am Caz, and I would like to say, Welcome!
I used to have a blog at a different website, but decided to move over here at Blogger, to be nearer to my lovely Second Life friends! :)
I have copied and pasted some of my posts from the old blog site, please enjoy reading them if you want to!
I will try to keep this blog updated regularly!
For now, have kinky fun! :-)
I am Caz, and I would like to say, Welcome!
I used to have a blog at a different website, but decided to move over here at Blogger, to be nearer to my lovely Second Life friends! :)
I have copied and pasted some of my posts from the old blog site, please enjoy reading them if you want to!
I will try to keep this blog updated regularly!
For now, have kinky fun! :-)
Saturday, 9 August 2008
Some thoughts about a weekend away...
I have been away to Brighton, to stay at a Dom friend’s house for a week. We did so many things while I was there, some kinky activities, some clothe shopping and a nice walk on the Brighton Pier and being kids in an ausument acarde while we were there!
I wanted to share with you all a few things about my experiences while I was down in Brighton. On this trip, I have come to realise a few things, and for this, I have my Dom friend to thank for.
Bondage – I have not had much experiences but that was before the Brighton trip! I have been tied up in various positions, with ropes, cuffs or chains. I have enjoyed being in bondage. When I am tied up, I feel really content, I feel like I am in my own world, and I just shut my eyes, enjoying the feeling of being helpless, and not struggling against him (unless we were doing a roleplay ) I enjoyed having him doing things to me, with his fingers, with his hands, with his tongue and many other things. But the best part for me is that when he holds me in his arms, while I am tied up, and I just sleep, dreaming away. That is when I feel at peace, that I feel happy. I can’t wait to explore more bondage with some people I know!
Caning – wow! It was a first time experience for me, and I really enjoyed it. I loved the feeling of the canes on my ass, to feel the sting from the cane, and the heat & pain soon after the cane hits. I like lying down, face down, and just closing my eyes, as I wait for the cane to hit and hit. I would love to try caning again.
Submission – I always wanted to try submission, where I would give up complete control to someone else, and let him use me in any way he wishes. This was a good opportunity for me to try it with my Dom friend for a 24 hour period. Now, I know some people may say that we might be not matched with each other, and that I might feel submissive to someone else who might be more suitable to me. But believe me, it was more than just a mismatch – it was me feeling upset, me feeling disgusted at myself, for giving up control, when I preferred to be more in control, to control the session, to control the submissive (not him!) This is a big part that I have came to realise that although I love to be on the bottom for pain play etc (as you will read in the page about me, I knew that I will not be giving up compete control once again for someone. And I am glad that I embraced submission with an open mind, and I walked away from it, knowing that I will never be in that positions again…..well, never say never!
So these are some thoughts I wanted to share with you.
Please do share your thoughts with me, on anything I might have said, or to ask questions etc.
Thank you
I wanted to share with you all a few things about my experiences while I was down in Brighton. On this trip, I have come to realise a few things, and for this, I have my Dom friend to thank for.
Bondage – I have not had much experiences but that was before the Brighton trip! I have been tied up in various positions, with ropes, cuffs or chains. I have enjoyed being in bondage. When I am tied up, I feel really content, I feel like I am in my own world, and I just shut my eyes, enjoying the feeling of being helpless, and not struggling against him (unless we were doing a roleplay ) I enjoyed having him doing things to me, with his fingers, with his hands, with his tongue and many other things. But the best part for me is that when he holds me in his arms, while I am tied up, and I just sleep, dreaming away. That is when I feel at peace, that I feel happy. I can’t wait to explore more bondage with some people I know!
Caning – wow! It was a first time experience for me, and I really enjoyed it. I loved the feeling of the canes on my ass, to feel the sting from the cane, and the heat & pain soon after the cane hits. I like lying down, face down, and just closing my eyes, as I wait for the cane to hit and hit. I would love to try caning again.
Submission – I always wanted to try submission, where I would give up complete control to someone else, and let him use me in any way he wishes. This was a good opportunity for me to try it with my Dom friend for a 24 hour period. Now, I know some people may say that we might be not matched with each other, and that I might feel submissive to someone else who might be more suitable to me. But believe me, it was more than just a mismatch – it was me feeling upset, me feeling disgusted at myself, for giving up control, when I preferred to be more in control, to control the session, to control the submissive (not him!) This is a big part that I have came to realise that although I love to be on the bottom for pain play etc (as you will read in the page about me, I knew that I will not be giving up compete control once again for someone. And I am glad that I embraced submission with an open mind, and I walked away from it, knowing that I will never be in that positions again…..well, never say never!
So these are some thoughts I wanted to share with you.
Please do share your thoughts with me, on anything I might have said, or to ask questions etc.
Thank you
Thursday, 31 July 2008
A year on.....
It is now a year since that I have realised I had a hidden side, waiting to come out, to be free, and for me to be who I am really.
That hidden side is now free, and I am very proud to be ‘kinky’!
I have been on a wonderful journey which is ever-lasting, never to be ended, I hope! I am still learning and exploring and enjoying every moment of my journey, whether it be a good or a bad moment.
Like all journeys, I have had ups and downs, more downs than I would have liked, but I feel that I have learnt a lot about myself during the “downs” times. When I was feeling down, I thought quite a lot about what being a submissive, being a Dom, or whatever meant to me at the time, and about myself in generally in life. It have helped me a lot.
At the beginning of my journey, I thought myself to be a submissive, and this was based on my fantasies and on other people’s ideas of what being submissive meant to them. However I came to realise that for me personally, labels is not important, it’s what inside me that matters, and the activities that I enjoy, the feelings from the situations, etc defines me.
As I begun to explore more of myself, I came to realise that I got excited at the thought of pain play, especially spankings and floggings. At the same time, I came to wonder how it would feel being in control, as when I was being spanked or flogged by the Top, quite often in my mind, that I wanted to control his spankings, and floggings and tell him how to do it, etc. Eventually, wondering was not enough and so I decided to step out and try being on the Top with a sub I chatted on MSN for a while, and oh my god, what a big revelation! I enjoyed being in control, to control his movements, to inflict pain on him and being waited and pampered in generally. It was like a big door opening for me to step in and learn and explore more.
Of course, I am still eager for pain play, to have someone Topping me once in a while. Now I identify myself as a switch, although who knows, that may change!
A big challenge is coming up for me, personally, as it is a big test of my submission, to see how I would feel submitting to someone, as I will be treated as a sub for a 24 hour period, and I am looking forward to that interesting experience, and seeing what the outcome would be of that 24 hour period.
I am looking forward to continuing my journey and seeing where it will go.
That hidden side is now free, and I am very proud to be ‘kinky’!
I have been on a wonderful journey which is ever-lasting, never to be ended, I hope! I am still learning and exploring and enjoying every moment of my journey, whether it be a good or a bad moment.
Like all journeys, I have had ups and downs, more downs than I would have liked, but I feel that I have learnt a lot about myself during the “downs” times. When I was feeling down, I thought quite a lot about what being a submissive, being a Dom, or whatever meant to me at the time, and about myself in generally in life. It have helped me a lot.
At the beginning of my journey, I thought myself to be a submissive, and this was based on my fantasies and on other people’s ideas of what being submissive meant to them. However I came to realise that for me personally, labels is not important, it’s what inside me that matters, and the activities that I enjoy, the feelings from the situations, etc defines me.
As I begun to explore more of myself, I came to realise that I got excited at the thought of pain play, especially spankings and floggings. At the same time, I came to wonder how it would feel being in control, as when I was being spanked or flogged by the Top, quite often in my mind, that I wanted to control his spankings, and floggings and tell him how to do it, etc. Eventually, wondering was not enough and so I decided to step out and try being on the Top with a sub I chatted on MSN for a while, and oh my god, what a big revelation! I enjoyed being in control, to control his movements, to inflict pain on him and being waited and pampered in generally. It was like a big door opening for me to step in and learn and explore more.
Of course, I am still eager for pain play, to have someone Topping me once in a while. Now I identify myself as a switch, although who knows, that may change!
A big challenge is coming up for me, personally, as it is a big test of my submission, to see how I would feel submitting to someone, as I will be treated as a sub for a 24 hour period, and I am looking forward to that interesting experience, and seeing what the outcome would be of that 24 hour period.
I am looking forward to continuing my journey and seeing where it will go.
Tuesday, 13 May 2008
My kinky weekend
About 2 weeks ago, I had the most fun kinky weekend!
On the Friday, a nice guy, D, came to my flat and gave me the spankings I deserved! *grins* We agreed to do a role-play, where I was wearing the wrong dress code, and then it would begin.
D arrived at the door, first we discussed a few things, as such as an agreed safe signal for me to use, etc.
Then, we were ready to start;
*start of roleplay*
He looked at my outfit, and shook his head, looking not happy and said I was wearing the wrong things, so he ordered me to strip off in front of him (I have never really done this before, so I was nervous, but, at the same time, I enjoyed it) and while I was undressing, he spanked my ass, on top of my mini-skirt. When I was in my underwear, he helped me taking my bra, off and then he caressed my breasts, while I took my black panties off.
He looked at me up and down, before ordering me to put the correct outfit on which were: a grey/black mini-skirt with white cotton panties. That pleased him very much so.
Then I was over his lap, ready for him to start spanking my ass cheeks. First, over the skirt, then on the cotton panties, and finally, bare ass cheeks. He made sure to spank everywhere, every bit of my ass cheeks, including the cracks. He also played with my pussy, while he spanked my ass cheeks. Then he ordered me to get up from his lap, and ordered me to bend over the arm of my sofa, and he begin to spank again…and again. Then I lay on my back on the sofa, opening my legs wide open, for him to use his tongue and to check thoroughly to see if I am wet, and of course I was! *grins* Some pussy spankings too. Then, I was turned over, on my front, and he used the belt on my ass cheeks - oh my god, it was very very painful! I soon learnt that I didn’t like spankings on the top of my bum, and on the sides of the bum, just on the centre, bottom and in between cracks. It was a very very harsh spanking session, and I loved it. The sensations of heat, fire and pain afterwards…*sighs* Afterwards, I played with his cock, as we snuggled up on the sofa, and just chilled out! It was good! *grins*
*End of roleplay*
On the Sunday, I met with a switch friend, M, we met through Fetlife. I enjoyed the chats with him through Fetlife, and so we moved to MSN, to contuine, till he said that he would be up in Scotland for work, and would I like to meet up with him to have a chat etc, and so we did! And more…..! *grins*
It was a very interesting day for me, because, prior to that, I have always been in one role or the other with one person, not changing roles half way through the play session. So it was a new experience for me. Also, I tried giving floggings and oh my god, I loved it! Thanks, to M, for being the guinea pig and allowing me to practice floggings on him! He was new to the subbing too, and I do think he have enjoyed it, at least I hope! *grins* First, I was the domme, and I gave spankings to his ass cheeks, first with him on his fours, later on my lap. (I love OTK spankings very much - in both roles) He was a footstool for me too. Then we tried my new toy; the pinwheel. Then I flogged his back and his ass cheeks, it was fun! I felt so in control of him, and I was really horny as well. The feeling of being in control really turned me on! After maybe an hour or a couple, we had a little break, then changed roles, and he used the pinwheel on my back, now I have a love/hate relationship with it! If it was used to put the pressure on, I didn’t like it, sorta of, but if it was used, lightly, I loved it! Next, he played with my breasts and nipples, wow…I loved that part, I have never had so much attention to my breasts and nipples like that before, and it was awesome! Then, he flogged my back *sighs* that was wonderful, I loved it very much so! I wanted more, and more! *grins* And finally, he gave me a few spankings over the jeans!
On Monday, I could not sit down properly - *smiles*
A huge thank you and hugs to D and M for giving me the most fun weekend!
On the Friday, a nice guy, D, came to my flat and gave me the spankings I deserved! *grins* We agreed to do a role-play, where I was wearing the wrong dress code, and then it would begin.
D arrived at the door, first we discussed a few things, as such as an agreed safe signal for me to use, etc.
Then, we were ready to start;
*start of roleplay*
He looked at my outfit, and shook his head, looking not happy and said I was wearing the wrong things, so he ordered me to strip off in front of him (I have never really done this before, so I was nervous, but, at the same time, I enjoyed it) and while I was undressing, he spanked my ass, on top of my mini-skirt. When I was in my underwear, he helped me taking my bra, off and then he caressed my breasts, while I took my black panties off.
He looked at me up and down, before ordering me to put the correct outfit on which were: a grey/black mini-skirt with white cotton panties. That pleased him very much so.
Then I was over his lap, ready for him to start spanking my ass cheeks. First, over the skirt, then on the cotton panties, and finally, bare ass cheeks. He made sure to spank everywhere, every bit of my ass cheeks, including the cracks. He also played with my pussy, while he spanked my ass cheeks. Then he ordered me to get up from his lap, and ordered me to bend over the arm of my sofa, and he begin to spank again…and again. Then I lay on my back on the sofa, opening my legs wide open, for him to use his tongue and to check thoroughly to see if I am wet, and of course I was! *grins* Some pussy spankings too. Then, I was turned over, on my front, and he used the belt on my ass cheeks - oh my god, it was very very painful! I soon learnt that I didn’t like spankings on the top of my bum, and on the sides of the bum, just on the centre, bottom and in between cracks. It was a very very harsh spanking session, and I loved it. The sensations of heat, fire and pain afterwards…*sighs* Afterwards, I played with his cock, as we snuggled up on the sofa, and just chilled out! It was good! *grins*
*End of roleplay*
On the Sunday, I met with a switch friend, M, we met through Fetlife. I enjoyed the chats with him through Fetlife, and so we moved to MSN, to contuine, till he said that he would be up in Scotland for work, and would I like to meet up with him to have a chat etc, and so we did! And more…..! *grins*
It was a very interesting day for me, because, prior to that, I have always been in one role or the other with one person, not changing roles half way through the play session. So it was a new experience for me. Also, I tried giving floggings and oh my god, I loved it! Thanks, to M, for being the guinea pig and allowing me to practice floggings on him! He was new to the subbing too, and I do think he have enjoyed it, at least I hope! *grins* First, I was the domme, and I gave spankings to his ass cheeks, first with him on his fours, later on my lap. (I love OTK spankings very much - in both roles) He was a footstool for me too. Then we tried my new toy; the pinwheel. Then I flogged his back and his ass cheeks, it was fun! I felt so in control of him, and I was really horny as well. The feeling of being in control really turned me on! After maybe an hour or a couple, we had a little break, then changed roles, and he used the pinwheel on my back, now I have a love/hate relationship with it! If it was used to put the pressure on, I didn’t like it, sorta of, but if it was used, lightly, I loved it! Next, he played with my breasts and nipples, wow…I loved that part, I have never had so much attention to my breasts and nipples like that before, and it was awesome! Then, he flogged my back *sighs* that was wonderful, I loved it very much so! I wanted more, and more! *grins* And finally, he gave me a few spankings over the jeans!
On Monday, I could not sit down properly - *smiles*
A huge thank you and hugs to D and M for giving me the most fun weekend!
Monday, 7 April 2008
My little pet... :-)
Oh, yesterday was a good day for me!
My two-legged pet came and went. And oh, my god, it was a good 2 and a half *roughly* hours of good play session with him.
Inspection first - with my riding crop………lovely ass cheeks, loved them. (my other sub’s fault - after that first play session with him, I found out that I have a huge thing for ass cheeks!) I could play with my pet’s ass cheeks all day long! Wow!
Then my pet cleaned the kitchen floor, with just a sponge and a basket of water. *smile* All I had to do is watch his lovely ass cheeks and used my crop once in a while as he cleaned … lovely!
After cleaning, we did other things… won’t go into details, but the one thing I found was that I really really enjoyed doing anal play with my pet. It was really intense for him and for me too. I was pleasantly surprised! With my sub the other week I did a little anal play, but it was not like today with my pet, not at all. It was more intense and more erm…how do I describe it? It was really awesome, is all I can say for now!
After a 2 hour and 20 minutes at the least, the play session was nearly over, but I needed a rest, so I told my pet to become a footstool and I put my feet on his back…..ahhh…lovely, his warm back warming my feet as I watched television, actually, I went to sleep a couple of times lol, I was so exhausted! After about 10 minutes, the play session was over.
I really enjoyed today’s play session with my pet, and I can’t wait to play with him again soon, as well as with my other sub(s). *grins*
Thank you, my little pet for yesterday. *kiss & hugs*
My two-legged pet came and went. And oh, my god, it was a good 2 and a half *roughly* hours of good play session with him.
Inspection first - with my riding crop………lovely ass cheeks, loved them. (my other sub’s fault - after that first play session with him, I found out that I have a huge thing for ass cheeks!) I could play with my pet’s ass cheeks all day long! Wow!
Then my pet cleaned the kitchen floor, with just a sponge and a basket of water. *smile* All I had to do is watch his lovely ass cheeks and used my crop once in a while as he cleaned … lovely!
After cleaning, we did other things… won’t go into details, but the one thing I found was that I really really enjoyed doing anal play with my pet. It was really intense for him and for me too. I was pleasantly surprised! With my sub the other week I did a little anal play, but it was not like today with my pet, not at all. It was more intense and more erm…how do I describe it? It was really awesome, is all I can say for now!
After a 2 hour and 20 minutes at the least, the play session was nearly over, but I needed a rest, so I told my pet to become a footstool and I put my feet on his back…..ahhh…lovely, his warm back warming my feet as I watched television, actually, I went to sleep a couple of times lol, I was so exhausted! After about 10 minutes, the play session was over.
I really enjoyed today’s play session with my pet, and I can’t wait to play with him again soon, as well as with my other sub(s). *grins*
Thank you, my little pet for yesterday. *kiss & hugs*
Wednesday, 2 April 2008
OK, last week, I had the most awesome time with a really lovely boy! *wink* It was really really good, and after the session, I came to realise that I liked being on the Top and being in control, controlling the boy’s every action/movement, giving out commands and teasing him! *wink* I also came to realise that I had a thing (blush) for ass cheeks and I could see anal play quite a lot in coming sessions with him and other boys I have planned to play with. *grins*
I have been doing quite a lot of thinking in the past week, and especially in the last few months. I have not been going to the Edinburgh munches and the DV8 quite a lot after Christmas, even though I have enjoyed myself at these events. I struggled with personal conflicts in me regarding the BDSM lifestyle, and at times I was uncertain whether if BDSM was really for me. I struggled with my fantasies and my wicked thoughts for playing with the boys and how I wanted to be used and abused by others. It was a hard time. I also was not sure where I did belong, was it in the BDSM community or in the other community? Both communities were important to me and so I felt a bit stuck in between both communities. My health problems (esp. my back pain problems) certainly did not help, as at times, I had to put my personal conflicts aside to focus on my health problems. *sad*
But today, I came to realise, after looking deeper into my personal conflicts with myself and with the BDSM lifestyle, that the lifestyle is FOR me and I am really ready to embrace it fully, and am really ready to continue on my journey, both as a bottom and as a Domme. Now I know how to identify myself (for old sake) to others, and I know what/who I am to myself, and I know how to describe myself and I know what limits I have, now. I am really pleased about this, but I know the journey will not be easy, but I am ready to face them and overcome any obstacles etc.
*smile*
*smile* Now, I am going to take each day as it comes, and to have fun with my boys! And looking for Top/Dom (s) to push my limits and especially my pain tolerance. *grins*
What fun it will be! *wicked chuckle*
I have been doing quite a lot of thinking in the past week, and especially in the last few months. I have not been going to the Edinburgh munches and the DV8 quite a lot after Christmas, even though I have enjoyed myself at these events. I struggled with personal conflicts in me regarding the BDSM lifestyle, and at times I was uncertain whether if BDSM was really for me. I struggled with my fantasies and my wicked thoughts for playing with the boys and how I wanted to be used and abused by others. It was a hard time. I also was not sure where I did belong, was it in the BDSM community or in the other community? Both communities were important to me and so I felt a bit stuck in between both communities. My health problems (esp. my back pain problems) certainly did not help, as at times, I had to put my personal conflicts aside to focus on my health problems. *sad*
But today, I came to realise, after looking deeper into my personal conflicts with myself and with the BDSM lifestyle, that the lifestyle is FOR me and I am really ready to embrace it fully, and am really ready to continue on my journey, both as a bottom and as a Domme. Now I know how to identify myself (for old sake) to others, and I know what/who I am to myself, and I know how to describe myself and I know what limits I have, now. I am really pleased about this, but I know the journey will not be easy, but I am ready to face them and overcome any obstacles etc.
*smile*
*smile* Now, I am going to take each day as it comes, and to have fun with my boys! And looking for Top/Dom (s) to push my limits and especially my pain tolerance. *grins*
What fun it will be! *wicked chuckle*
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