Oh, yesterday was a good day for me!
My two-legged pet came and went. And oh, my god, it was a good 2 and a half *roughly* hours of good play session with him.
Inspection first - with my riding crop………lovely ass cheeks, loved them. (my other sub’s fault - after that first play session with him, I found out that I have a huge thing for ass cheeks!) I could play with my pet’s ass cheeks all day long! Wow!
Then my pet cleaned the kitchen floor, with just a sponge and a basket of water. *smile* All I had to do is watch his lovely ass cheeks and used my crop once in a while as he cleaned … lovely!
After cleaning, we did other things… won’t go into details, but the one thing I found was that I really really enjoyed doing anal play with my pet. It was really intense for him and for me too. I was pleasantly surprised! With my sub the other week I did a little anal play, but it was not like today with my pet, not at all. It was more intense and more erm…how do I describe it? It was really awesome, is all I can say for now!
After a 2 hour and 20 minutes at the least, the play session was nearly over, but I needed a rest, so I told my pet to become a footstool and I put my feet on his back…..ahhh…lovely, his warm back warming my feet as I watched television, actually, I went to sleep a couple of times lol, I was so exhausted! After about 10 minutes, the play session was over.
I really enjoyed today’s play session with my pet, and I can’t wait to play with him again soon, as well as with my other sub(s). *grins*
Thank you, my little pet for yesterday. *kiss & hugs*
Monday, 7 April 2008
Wednesday, 2 April 2008
OK, last week, I had the most awesome time with a really lovely boy! *wink* It was really really good, and after the session, I came to realise that I liked being on the Top and being in control, controlling the boy’s every action/movement, giving out commands and teasing him! *wink* I also came to realise that I had a thing (blush) for ass cheeks and I could see anal play quite a lot in coming sessions with him and other boys I have planned to play with. *grins*
I have been doing quite a lot of thinking in the past week, and especially in the last few months. I have not been going to the Edinburgh munches and the DV8 quite a lot after Christmas, even though I have enjoyed myself at these events. I struggled with personal conflicts in me regarding the BDSM lifestyle, and at times I was uncertain whether if BDSM was really for me. I struggled with my fantasies and my wicked thoughts for playing with the boys and how I wanted to be used and abused by others. It was a hard time. I also was not sure where I did belong, was it in the BDSM community or in the other community? Both communities were important to me and so I felt a bit stuck in between both communities. My health problems (esp. my back pain problems) certainly did not help, as at times, I had to put my personal conflicts aside to focus on my health problems. *sad*
But today, I came to realise, after looking deeper into my personal conflicts with myself and with the BDSM lifestyle, that the lifestyle is FOR me and I am really ready to embrace it fully, and am really ready to continue on my journey, both as a bottom and as a Domme. Now I know how to identify myself (for old sake) to others, and I know what/who I am to myself, and I know how to describe myself and I know what limits I have, now. I am really pleased about this, but I know the journey will not be easy, but I am ready to face them and overcome any obstacles etc.
*smile*
*smile* Now, I am going to take each day as it comes, and to have fun with my boys! And looking for Top/Dom (s) to push my limits and especially my pain tolerance. *grins*
What fun it will be! *wicked chuckle*
I have been doing quite a lot of thinking in the past week, and especially in the last few months. I have not been going to the Edinburgh munches and the DV8 quite a lot after Christmas, even though I have enjoyed myself at these events. I struggled with personal conflicts in me regarding the BDSM lifestyle, and at times I was uncertain whether if BDSM was really for me. I struggled with my fantasies and my wicked thoughts for playing with the boys and how I wanted to be used and abused by others. It was a hard time. I also was not sure where I did belong, was it in the BDSM community or in the other community? Both communities were important to me and so I felt a bit stuck in between both communities. My health problems (esp. my back pain problems) certainly did not help, as at times, I had to put my personal conflicts aside to focus on my health problems. *sad*
But today, I came to realise, after looking deeper into my personal conflicts with myself and with the BDSM lifestyle, that the lifestyle is FOR me and I am really ready to embrace it fully, and am really ready to continue on my journey, both as a bottom and as a Domme. Now I know how to identify myself (for old sake) to others, and I know what/who I am to myself, and I know how to describe myself and I know what limits I have, now. I am really pleased about this, but I know the journey will not be easy, but I am ready to face them and overcome any obstacles etc.
*smile*
*smile* Now, I am going to take each day as it comes, and to have fun with my boys! And looking for Top/Dom (s) to push my limits and especially my pain tolerance. *grins*
What fun it will be! *wicked chuckle*
Thursday, 25 October 2007
Some spanking fun! :-)
My first spanking (12/10/07)
What can I say??
It was an really awesome night, I don’t want to reveal too much, but it was really good, and I am soooo happy that I finally got my wish, that my spanking dreams became a reality tonight. AND it was even better than it was in my dreams!!
First, it was kind of ~A to cook dinner for me at his flat, and it was lovely, for a change, since I wasn’t good at cooking, and usually had microwave meals for one or takeaways.
After the dinner, I got very nervous, but he calmed me down, by explaining what he were going to do. And it was really good of him to do that. He took my hand, and then we went to his bedroom.
He then asked if I wanted to keep jeans on, I nodded and then we began with me over his lap, and we started with the bare hand spankings, first. It was really good, gentle, with rubs and squeezes in between and with him checking in with me every few minutes to make sure I was okay, etc.
It went on for an hour or so, with the bare hand spankings first on jeans and on bare bottom then onto to a couple of floggers and finally a nice ferula, with some rubs and squeezes. I was going up and up, with the spankings going on, and his rubs and squeezes, it was really a nice feeling, can’t describe it in words, but if you like spankings, like I do, you will know what I mean!
After a proper rub with cream, we snuggled up to each other, with him playing with my hair and we talked, with a notepad, about what happened. It was a nice end of a spanking scene.
I am sooo glad…. I FINALLY DID IT!
Spanking updated (25/10/07)
Last Saturday, I have been along for another lovely spanking session with my play partner, *A* and I loved being spanked by him. He had a couple of new floggers, and I loved both floggers for different reasons!! *grins*
The red flogger were a bit heavy with lots of suede tails, and were very thuddy. It was a really good flogger and beat heavily on my lovely bottom and oh, boy, it was very sore….but I loved it anyway!! *giggle* I was in heaven as he spanked me with different floggers, leather strap and the EVIL tawse!!
The purple flogger were a small flogger with a fewer tails and he used it on my bottom, but I felt nothing, BUT when he ran it down and up on my back and beat it gently with the flogger, I LOVED it, it was a very new thing and I loved the sensation from the flogger. I asked *A* to use it again on me, and he did. I enjoyed it and had a big smile so when he stopped, I felt a bit of disappointment, as I really, really loved the new sensation and wanted to experience it a little longer but then at the same time, I loved being spanked with his new flogger!! *laughs* Finally, he used the tawse on me 6 times…..HARD…..really HARD…..and I was in pain at the end…but I did love it very much!!
After cuddling up in bed for a short while, he then progressed and played with my breasts…..ahhh…..and he used the small flogger on my breasts…very nice indeed. Then he used some cloth pegs on my nipple and he flogged my breast underneath, carefully to not hurt or damage anything. *smile* It was a new thing for me, and I really enjoyed it very much. Would love to try it again!!
So, that’s my update!!
Still eager to learn new things and wanting to try more things, as such as rope bondage or sensation play among other things!
What can I say??
It was an really awesome night, I don’t want to reveal too much, but it was really good, and I am soooo happy that I finally got my wish, that my spanking dreams became a reality tonight. AND it was even better than it was in my dreams!!
First, it was kind of ~A to cook dinner for me at his flat, and it was lovely, for a change, since I wasn’t good at cooking, and usually had microwave meals for one or takeaways.
After the dinner, I got very nervous, but he calmed me down, by explaining what he were going to do. And it was really good of him to do that. He took my hand, and then we went to his bedroom.
He then asked if I wanted to keep jeans on, I nodded and then we began with me over his lap, and we started with the bare hand spankings, first. It was really good, gentle, with rubs and squeezes in between and with him checking in with me every few minutes to make sure I was okay, etc.
It went on for an hour or so, with the bare hand spankings first on jeans and on bare bottom then onto to a couple of floggers and finally a nice ferula, with some rubs and squeezes. I was going up and up, with the spankings going on, and his rubs and squeezes, it was really a nice feeling, can’t describe it in words, but if you like spankings, like I do, you will know what I mean!
After a proper rub with cream, we snuggled up to each other, with him playing with my hair and we talked, with a notepad, about what happened. It was a nice end of a spanking scene.
I am sooo glad…. I FINALLY DID IT!
Spanking updated (25/10/07)
Last Saturday, I have been along for another lovely spanking session with my play partner, *A* and I loved being spanked by him. He had a couple of new floggers, and I loved both floggers for different reasons!! *grins*
The red flogger were a bit heavy with lots of suede tails, and were very thuddy. It was a really good flogger and beat heavily on my lovely bottom and oh, boy, it was very sore….but I loved it anyway!! *giggle* I was in heaven as he spanked me with different floggers, leather strap and the EVIL tawse!!
The purple flogger were a small flogger with a fewer tails and he used it on my bottom, but I felt nothing, BUT when he ran it down and up on my back and beat it gently with the flogger, I LOVED it, it was a very new thing and I loved the sensation from the flogger. I asked *A* to use it again on me, and he did. I enjoyed it and had a big smile so when he stopped, I felt a bit of disappointment, as I really, really loved the new sensation and wanted to experience it a little longer but then at the same time, I loved being spanked with his new flogger!! *laughs* Finally, he used the tawse on me 6 times…..HARD…..really HARD…..and I was in pain at the end…but I did love it very much!!
After cuddling up in bed for a short while, he then progressed and played with my breasts…..ahhh…..and he used the small flogger on my breasts…very nice indeed. Then he used some cloth pegs on my nipple and he flogged my breast underneath, carefully to not hurt or damage anything. *smile* It was a new thing for me, and I really enjoyed it very much. Would love to try it again!!
So, that’s my update!!
Still eager to learn new things and wanting to try more things, as such as rope bondage or sensation play among other things!
Tuesday, 17 July 2007
What does being a submissive means to me?
I have been thinking about what being a submissive means to me.
Before posting this in my blog, I have been thinking about it very seriously. And I feel that this is what being a submissive means to me.
I believe that I am a naturally submissive who have a desire to please and to serve her Dom in most of the aspects of everyday life. However, I do not know if I could serve in a domestic way, i.e. doing the housework, doing the ironing and doing the washing as I am useless at the housework *laughs* but IF a Dom requires for me to do the housework, I suppose we will have to come to a compromise where I might be best in areas of housework, and might get someone in to do other areas, but this is just my view, who knows, this might change within time and if I am in a D/s relationship, in which that I am not.
I feel that I would like to be lead and guided by a Dom in the bedroom and outside the bedroom, i.e. domestic serves as such as making breakfast (within limits! I am not good at cooking); organising his everyday schedules, etc. I am a very organised person (at times) and could help the Dom in the office, if he does require it and I would like to do little tasks and assignments for him. I dream of this everyday and I hope to find a Dom who is suitable, who likes to look after his little submissive, have a desire for spankings (not for punishments *grins*), to explore and push my limitations, but at the same time, encourages me to achieve my dreams and to be more confident (I am shy in real life, when meeting new faces for the first time.)
In my life, I am an ambitious person, who wants to achieve her dreams in the terms of my working life, I am a tutor, and I hope to become a lecturer at university in the future. And I hope to find a Dom who won’t stop me in achieving my dreams, however I do have dreams to travel so hopefully the Dom will travel with me.
So, my first thought. Who knows, this could change within time.
I will post some more of my thoughts soon.
Thank you for reading and please do comment on the first thought.
Caz x
Before posting this in my blog, I have been thinking about it very seriously. And I feel that this is what being a submissive means to me.
I believe that I am a naturally submissive who have a desire to please and to serve her Dom in most of the aspects of everyday life. However, I do not know if I could serve in a domestic way, i.e. doing the housework, doing the ironing and doing the washing as I am useless at the housework *laughs* but IF a Dom requires for me to do the housework, I suppose we will have to come to a compromise where I might be best in areas of housework, and might get someone in to do other areas, but this is just my view, who knows, this might change within time and if I am in a D/s relationship, in which that I am not.
I feel that I would like to be lead and guided by a Dom in the bedroom and outside the bedroom, i.e. domestic serves as such as making breakfast (within limits! I am not good at cooking); organising his everyday schedules, etc. I am a very organised person (at times) and could help the Dom in the office, if he does require it and I would like to do little tasks and assignments for him. I dream of this everyday and I hope to find a Dom who is suitable, who likes to look after his little submissive, have a desire for spankings (not for punishments *grins*), to explore and push my limitations, but at the same time, encourages me to achieve my dreams and to be more confident (I am shy in real life, when meeting new faces for the first time.)
In my life, I am an ambitious person, who wants to achieve her dreams in the terms of my working life, I am a tutor, and I hope to become a lecturer at university in the future. And I hope to find a Dom who won’t stop me in achieving my dreams, however I do have dreams to travel so hopefully the Dom will travel with me.
So, my first thought. Who knows, this could change within time.
I will post some more of my thoughts soon.
Thank you for reading and please do comment on the first thought.
Caz x
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